I have a feeling when I have sex with my boyfriend that this is a purely transactional process. He shows his affection and love for me, and I'm just kind of there. Wearing underwear or push-up bras makes me personally feel like a toy or fantasy for masturbation. I am in a safe environment with a person I trust, so I am not uncomfortable. But every time it seems insincere, because I don't feel sexy. I don't care what my tits look like. So there is no connecting part with love, just a job that needs to be done. But a 20-minute deal is worth spending the rest of your days with the most fun and happy person I know. What about you?